I ask myself this question quite often. Am I going to be okay? Then I go through my mental list of the things I want to see manifest in my daily life. If my list turns out to be too big I immediately become overwhelmed. That’s when I re-evaluate and prioritize what is most beneficial and what is urgent. By doing this I am able to condense my list making it a lot less frightening. I use the word frightening because there are several areas in my life where I am solely motivated by fear. Now that my mental list is reduced to a level that I can manage without becoming overwhelmed I set goals for myself. Most importantly, I try to never leap into anything with out researching it first. It’s like reading the side effects before taking a medication. This way I have an idea of what to expect. Also, it simplifies the process I need to do in order to obtain my goals.
The Narcissist I am deeply in love with is the most destructive person imaginable. What he covertly destroyed was my personal belongings. He targeted the items I adored the most. But it goes much deeper than that. He would literally get me in situations where I was in physical danger. There was absolutely no enjoyment or happiness for me in my marriage to him.
I take what I call baby steps and as long as I keep things simple I know that I’m going to be okay.
Thanx for letting me share.
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