The Sting of Covert Narcissism Covert narcissism is messed up! It is so twisted you feel like you are going insane just trying to get a grasp on what’s going on. It is so hard to pinpoint and impossible to describe. You can’t possibly explain it to someone who hasn’t experienced it themselves. Trying to […]
Discovery & Recovery
Living Like a Blind Fool You stomped all over my feelings, Smashing them again and again, Like a bull, thrashing in a China shop. No awareness and no remorse. Living like a blind fool. I forgave you, though apologies never came, Blaming myself again and again, Like a mouse, afraid of my own feelings. […]
No Reconciliation Ever with a Narcissist In relationships, you are certainly going to upset each other from time to time. You are going to hurt each other’s feelings. You are going to upset each other. This is a very normal part of life. Knowing this is true, however, caused me for years to justify what […]
Others have it much worse than me, shouldn’t I just be grateful? A Recurring Perspective One perspective that keeps surfacing from my readers goes something like this, “I read other people’s stories and hear the nightmares they are living. Physical abuse, alcohol and drugs, sex addiction and cheating. Mine simply isn’t that bad. Sure, he […]
What Happens when a Narcissist Tries to “Fix” that Broken Relationship? When does a relationship with a narcissist get worse? When that narcissist decides that they must “fix” the relationship. When they decide to “take charge” of making things right. This is a disaster! What Does “Fix” the Relationship Mean to a Narcissist? It means: […]
Why do narcissists give only misery? They seem to have the best of intentions. They say they love you. They say they want what is best for you. They say they want peace and happiness with you. Yet, everyone is miserable. Why?? You can only really give that which you have. If all you have […]
Sometimes We Stay for Our Kids…..At Least For A While I am right now at the point of making the single hardest decision I have ever made. Do I stay or do I leave? Do I file for divorce or do I keep putting it off? This is NOT an easy decision. It is one […]
Narcissists: Is it Okay to Love Them and Still Walk Away? Absolutely YES!!! I hear so many people questioning themselves about walking away from abusive relationships. If this is you, please read on. First let me say, I fully recognize that narcissists and abusive partners can definitely be male or female. For the ease of […]
How to Turn the Table on a Narcissist One extremely effective tactic for when you are forced to communicate with a narcissist in your life. Narcissists absolutely hate for the other person to be right. Especially if that person is a spouse, significant other, parent or child. They will disagree with you simply for the […]
Narcissists and Emotions Narcissists seem to have absolutely no emotional intelligence, inside themselves or with the world around them. The general consensus is that they have no understanding of basic human emotion, especially other people’s emotions. They continuously stomp all over your feelings and don’t show an ounce of care about it. They can talk […]
The Distorted View of an Abuse Victim A Distorted View of Reality When my son was around 9 years old, he apparently needed glasses. We did not know that he needed glasses. He was not aware that things were blurry to him. He thought that what he saw was reality. For example when he looked […]
I Survived the Day of Divorce So my divorce is finally done! Our court date was 2 days ago, and it’s over. This was a day that I thought would never actually get here. I’ve known for years that it was coming. The verbal and emotional abuse was never going to stop. The psychological games […]
A Life-Saving Epiphany An epiphany is a light bulb moment. It is a sudden intuitive grasp of reality, an illuminating discovery, realization, disclosure, or insight, or a revealing moment in time. My favorite definition that I ran across is “a moment of sudden or great revelation that usually changes you in some way.” I have […]
When I Told My Covert Narcissist that I was Done The emotional energy in the house had reached an all-time high. This family was about to explode! I was about to explode! I told my family that I was ready to tell him that I am truly done. It is time to file for divorce. […]
How Did I Know it was Time to File for Divorce? I am in a 20 year marriage, and divorce has been coming for a long time. For a few years now, my friends and family have been asking me when I am actually going to file. My answer has always been, “I don’t know, […]
I Can’t Fix This! My Shit-Sweeping Broom So the first 10 years of our marriage were seen by him and the world as nearly perfect. We never fought and hardly ever disagreed. We were told repeatedly that we were such a wonderful fit and seemed so happy together. Why? Because I was using a shit-sweeping […]
From Victim to Survivor to Victor When you are dealing with a covert narcissist, it is so incredibly hard to see the abuse, especially at first. You may know that something is wrong in the relationship, but you are just as likely to blame yourself as you are to blame your partner. In fact, you […]
The Apology Dodging of a Narcissist I have never met anyone better at dodging apologizing than a narcissist. They are experts at it. Their sense of superiority causes them to never feel that they are in the wrong. Other “inferior” individuals are always to blame. So for them to apologize requires that they lower themselves […]
Narcissists take NO personal responsibility Do you ever wonder why you find yourself carrying all the responsibility in your relationship? Do you find yourself listening to excuse after excuse for his or her bad behavior? Are you tired of hearing why it’s okay THIS time? Excuses pile up – I had a bad childhood. My […]
8 Signs of Circular ConversationsDiscovery & Recovery, Toxic Relationships, Understanding Narcissism
8 Signs of Circular Conversations What is a circular conversation? Let me start by saying these aren’t conversations. They are verbal competitions and even warfare. Narcissists don’t use conversations to find understanding and compromise. They use them to win. These conversations are extremely planned and manipulated. There is absolutely no such thing as spontaneity. There […]